Not Giving Up

From experience no matter how far you are into something could be exercise, a diet routine, saving money – anything really. It’s easy to give up, at any point right at the beginning or right into the thick of it and one of these things could be life.

Now this isn't necessarily giving up on living, but giving up on trying, which throughout parts of my teenager years I have felt, teenage relationships which make you feel as if your life is over when your first love dumps you – well it isn't, far from it...just feels like it.

But there may be people you may be friends with or know who end up wanting to give up on life and if you’re friends with them it could hit you badly, people who suffer from that kind of depression isn't something you can just chat to them make them feel better and everything will be okay, it’s to the point where they need professional help and the full support of family and friends. To me trying to help someone going through this when you’re not a professional or have any kind of experience is like being in an unbreakable glass box – there mind is the form of them just sitting there side on unaware of your presence and I see myself screaming at the top of my lungs, pounding away at the glass hitting again and again with an incredible amount of urgency trying to break through and just not being able to help them fully. It was at this point it made me realise that I can be there for them but for them to get truly through this, it had to be of their own choosing, it’s not as simple as giving a motivational speech and then everything is fine, it’s being patient and having the perseverance to get better. This friend, I hope they get better I truly do I want the best for them and want them to live a full life, happy.

Furthermore as previously said, giving up isn’t just about giving up on living, it can be not being motivated to get up early, not wanting to face people at school who give you harassment which could lead to depression big or small, but no matter happens there are people who care, never once think there are people who don’t care or don’t know what you’re going through as you may find if you talk to a friend or family member they may know exactly how you feel, again from previous experience talk to people never let these feelings of self-doubt take over your life – talk to someone, take that weight of your shoulders, don’t let it lead to something more than it is. Never wake up feeling like you’re not good enough, never let people think that you’re good enough. The moment you let people make you feel that way it just sets in your mind that you aren't. Throughout life people will doubt you and not believe in you but if you believe and put the hard work in, you can get up in the morning for that run or aim for that dream job. One piece of advice though this doesn't necessarily count for partners sometimes people aren't interested no matter how nice and caring you are, there’s time where you may have to move on as they may give you a restraining order, ask my soon to be wife Jennifer Lawrence. All jokes aside life is never a straight smooth road, it’s filled with bumps big and small (wow I feel so cheesy for using this as an example, I think it’s a metaphor not sure It’s 1am and my mind is not functioning to its maximum). Just to point out, I am no expert just advice and sharing from experience, my word is not the word of God, not that I believe in God but you get my meaning – hopefully.

Liam

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A serious matter, for once.

Politics.

I know, I know just the sheer sight of the word is displeasing and boring. Especially to people under the age of about 20, when people think politics  they think of the show on telly where they ramble on like Punch and Judy or it sounds like the turkey noises south park used to do on their older episodes when people were rambling on about pointless stuff.

But in the past year, it's taken the interest due to the difference between the higher and lower classes, it's absurd. We live in a capitalist country 'The rich get richer and the poor get poorer', makes communist sound great doesn't it? equal amount of wealth, well not exactly as communist countries are somehow worse even with it's motto. I don't see how it could ever be okay.

The part that hits home the most, tuition fee's 9,000 per year and when I tend to talk about this, the same argument comes along each time we only pay 9% a year and you only have to pay it when you're earning over 21,000 per year. Well, surely if you go to University the idea is that you want a job over 21,000 right? maybe 25-30 grand per year? that may just be me but even so it would only be just under 300 a year, doesn't sound like much with 30,000 pounds. But, it's a still debt we're paying for Education.

Education should be a right, not something we pay for now it's seems like University is a business a price tag the bit of tax doesn't hurt when paying for first and secondary schools or if University was the odd bit tax, on average a student comes out with 44,000 pounds worth of debt. 1/3 of those students go to a job that isn't related to their qualification.One of the reasons that the tuition fee's was increased was due to improve the teaching and this article provides an insight to how that's panned out - http://www.telegraph.co.uk/education/educationopinion/9767314/Why-tuition-fees-havent-improved-university-teaching.html- Now, don't get me wrong they're are some brilliant lecturers in University, but there's some that make a lot of students feel, I'm paying 9,000 each University a year for this and this is from personal experience in lecturers.

 Politicians are known for their false promises and one of them was not to increase the tuition fee's. Another reason that the increase was brought in was because we apparently can't afford to pay for the University's, on average there's 4.6 billion of tax avoiding...4.6 billion, that average will probably rise with the HSBC incident of the rich avoiding tax, so to say we can't afford it is absurd. Tax the rich and make them pay, we all pay tax so why for those who can afford it quite easily not have to pay it. One of those people avoiding tax for over two decades http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-31459067 a property investor has been caught red handed, sounds great doesn't it *buzzer sounds* WRONG! the property investor Mr Bloomfield wasn't even charged. One Rule For The Rich, Another For The Poor. 

I'd happily become a socialist, who believe in everything to be equal or at least fair. I could never really vote still haven't yet. And not voting doesn't do much unless the people not voting are willing to protest, protest and protest hard. See not voting for me can be a bit of problem with a sports management course, due to the industry, the dilemma is that the people currently in charge (David Cameron Conservatives) think that nothing is wrong with the sports industry and nothing has to be done, which would be wrong to think.

Personally it feels like the politicians just care about big corporations and I know I'm not the only one who feels that way.

Liam

Burn all the candles out, make a wish but not aloud. (It's been a while, sorry not sorry)

An update I guess, not that anyone cares. I write as if someone's reading but it's just me. Also it's not 'Writ' it's wrote, Murder She Wrote not Writ. God, I feel better now.

....Liam

Well I can't really leave it that short, so the update - New laptop, the old one broke, just doesn't turn on any more so I had to get a new one, it's okay I can record with it, just not as well. Takes a while longer to process it into a video format after recording, but it's better than nothing. Apart from that I prefer this laptop to the old one, especially with it having Word and all that fun stuff? on it and now I have drop-box so can transfer files back and forth.

University, well it's good, new units that are actually quite interesting.  So glad that research skills is over, it was such a drag and made me hate life to be honest, had the odd bit to do with sport, just basic skills apparently to help towards, did it help? a handbook probably would of saved me time and a exam. There's now weekly assignments due in every week at the moment and only one of them actually get marked, the lecturer rolls a dice and that's how he chooses, so hard work in all of them really.

Lastly, this Blog's quite short, but not really short like above. - exercise routine because of my fucked up sleeping pattern I wake up about 6-7 during the week, so decided to take advantage of that and go running twice and week, as well as do circuit training. More on that in a later Blog.

Liam

Video Games make me want to throw a fucking chair into Chuck Norris, then run for my life (General update and possible rant?)

Do you ever look into a mirror and go "Wow aren't you looking fine today" - Yeah, me neither. Feeling down and how I tend to deal with it, well first not well, just kind of let it sit there like how people do with STD's, it'll go away sure it will if you  leave it. Then I guess I just leave it to heal from hanging out with friends or eventually tell them, which is what I recommend if you have something on your mind, just tell someone you care about - make sure they care about you too otherwise it might be awkward, someone you've been stalking doesn't count. On that point make sure you can fully trust them as you may find some people you trust and that they might end up using this to their advantage and hurting you more - which makes you want to steal your parents car keys and going all kamikaze through their bedroom window while they're getting themselves off on how bad they make you feel ( people are assholes aren't they) or My Little Pony -- But, yeah...I'm not the best of dealing with things always, I would say I eat when I feel like that but I eat whenever I'm bored (taking advantage of a high metabolism).

I feel they're times where it is dealt with really well, like being able to laugh it off or at least try to then hysterically cry like today for instance I saw the song Story of a Lonely Guy by Blink-182 pop up on my phone and thought "did they make that for me" and being able to laugh that off, or being incapably and just emotionally retarded when it comes to finding someone. But, I feel I am lucky with the friends I have who take the bullet and I do the same, in fact we'd probably both get shot from a collateral from fighting for it (360 no scope #bringbackMW2).

I feel as a teenager now that you could have everything you need like a house, warm bed, friends and for some reason you're still feeling 'depressed'- now don't get me wrong they're are times where you will legitimately feel down and have good reason for it, some people still feel that in their adult years and it needs to be dealt with by professionals or at least some kind of therapy. But back to the point, I feel now that they were times I made myself feel down and I would love to go back to my former self and say six things:

1) People along the line will mistreat you and you will feel shit but seriously, fuck them and whatever you do, do not let them see how it makes you feel, rise above it. They're no better for it.

2) People you care about will get old and sadly pass away, don't make the mistake you made of letting it consume you through anger, it isn't what they wanted from you.

3) Don't take things too seriously, especially your relationships- you will find someone else and you will look back and think it wasn't worth the hours of feeling down and trying to get them back, they hurt you and it's crap, yes it is. But stick with your friends and things will be okay.

4) Learn how to play a guitar, trust me, you'll kick yourself otherwise

5) You will lose some friends down the line but when you're older you'll have the best friends you've ever had and ones that stand by you through everything

6) Arsenal do eventually get another trophy.

On the last note of depression, teenage years is music, I felt I let music make me feel how I felt too and that I let the lyrics consume me in the wrong mind, and feeling like crap, letting my mind get to that state, now there is nothing wrong with relating to an artist and their lyrics, but don't make the mistake of making it let you feel down.

Liam